Now that I finally have some time to breathe I feel like I can catch everyone up on the last few months of my life!
September of 2016 I made a really difficult and challenging decision that I agonized over for months: I decided to leave my first job in my profession (as an Acupuncture Physician). The job, technically, that brought me to Jacksonville, FL.
At the end of the day you have to trust your gut. When something feels off don’t bury that inkling, instead, ask it questions. That decision was incredibly difficult. I went back and forth with this for a long time. I had many moments of shed tears and long chats with my family, friends, and mostly myself. At the end of the day my gut was getting increasingly louder and I could no longer ignore it; I came to my decision.
I learned in that short period of time something truly invaluable, something I hope everyone learns (and I hope they learn it with much less struggle). I have learned something some people may never learn, and that saddens me. I learned my worth.
With that, I was at a crossroads. Although Marc and I were in a great place in our relationship, originally I moved to Jacksonville for a job, leaving behind an opportunity in Rhode Island. So do I stay, or do I go?
The thought of us doing long distance, again, after moving in together was a big determining factor for staying in Jacksonville. Taz (my cat) and I already settled into our home here with Marc and I made some fantastic contacts in the medical community here. I was also just starting to make a social circle for myself. Leaving would mean starting over in every aspect of my life. New city, new friends, new place to live, new medical community to acquaint myself to, new job- the amount of “new” just went on and on. And so we (Taz and I) stayed.
Staying also posed some challenges though. There are very few jobs available for Acupuncture Physicians, especially those who specialize. So I had to open up my own practice. Within one month I found a place, Marc and I (mainly Marc, if we’re being honest) made renovations, and before we knew it I was seeing patients.
I’m finally at a point where I can breathe and thank God (long overdue) for my life and this journey I’m on. Everything happens for a reason, the good and the bad, and I know this deep within the fibers of my existence.
I’m always so cautious, not to be too happy, not to fully exhale, not to let my feet fully lift from the ground. But I’m learning to give myself some credit, to enjoy these victories, even (and especially), the small ones.
I will continue to give the gift of the medicine I was trained in, it’s ingrained into my existence, I can not separate it from me. It’s crazy how that happens, you don’t simple practice Traditional Chinese Medicine (TCM), you become it.
I’m so grateful for the medicine I practice, for the career I pursued, for the life and path I’ve been guided down. I’m so grateful for the opportunity to continue to honor the medicine I know and the oath I took. I’m feeling incredibly blessed and (cautiously but firmly) optimistic.
May much love, health and joy come our way in this new year. May it be good to our souls, our hearts and our health.
Below is the link to my office, take a look around. I’m so proud of what I've accomplished within myself to make this practice a reality. I never, not in a million years, thought I'd open up my own office, and yet, here I am, and here it is:
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